Mommy Diaries: The bright side of our life

Our family is not perfect but we are blessed. We went through lot of struggles in life but we chose to face it and move forward for better life. Ian and I we’re married for 4 years and being together as couple for 10 years, we know each other very well but until now we discover something new in our personalities. Syempre ika nga nila, pag mag asawa na, continue parin ang mga natutuklasan nyo sa isa’t isa. Meron maganda, meron rin panget but we embraced it with all our hearts because we believed that if you love someone, you will accept him/her for who they are.

One of my friends told me that I have a perfect family, but I correct her and told her that I don’t have a perfect family instead I have a beautiful family. Ian is a very loving man, even before I say “Yes” to be his girlfriend, I saw his heart full of sincerity and loyalty. For 6 years as bf/gf stage, we’ve been through ups and downs, there are times that I want to quit, I remember that is almost 1 week to go before our wedding day when we had a fight and told him that I don’t want to marry him. Yes! 1 week nalang nung bigla akong umayaw, but God is so good to us, he guided us and give us time to talk with each other and make things work out. It’s not easy but love wins!

During our 1^st year of married life, it’s like we were in a cloud 9 and we don’t think too much about our problems, we just enjoy our life as a newlywed couple and live life to the fullest. God gave us a bundle of joy before our 1^st wedding anniversary and we’re so happy that time. Rhian is one of our greatest blessings from God and we will be forever grateful to him for giving us Rhian at the right time. Pero kahit na gano pa kami kasaya, problems will always come in our life. Hindi naman maiiwasan yun db, I found out that I’m pregnant with Rhaine before Rhian’s 1^st Birthday. It was unexpected blessings that we received, it’s a mixed emotions and believe me, super worried ako that time because I don’t know how to handle two babies with very small age gap, but I believe that God has another plan for us. Our savings is deflated that time since we’re still recovering from paying our debts from giving birth to Rhian (remember, na emergency CS ako) so yung ipon namin nagalaw narin. Then, another problem came up during my 2^nd trimester when Friendster declares to shut down the company. Super hirap noon sa part ko kasi I know we need extra money, I need to work to help my husband in our expenses, lalo na malapit na kong manganak noon, although the company is so good to us because we were compensated properly, binayaran kami based on the years of service and since I worked at Friendster for almost 5 years, I got more than enough money for my delivery.

When Rhaine came into our lives, our life has changed. Mas sumaya kami, mas naging kumpleto, mas napatunayan ko na mahal na mahal ako ng asawa ko, na maayos kong napalaki si Rhian kasi she love her sister so much and lastly, na kaya ko palang mag alaga ng 2 baby at the same time. I am super mom! Despite of all the problems that we faced, my husband told me that we should always look on the bright side of our life, that it’s not going to be easy, it’s going to be really hard, that we need each other to work it out because at the end it’s going to be worth it.

I thought our life will be easy now especially financially since I got back to work 2 months after I gave birth but I’m wrong. Mas lumaki ang gastos namin dahil narin nalaki na ang pamilya namin, plus the fact that I need to get yaya for Rhaine. Milk, diapers, vaccines na ginto ang presyo, clothes (basic clothes) lalo na ang bilis lumaki ng mga bata, payment for the helpers/yaya, etc. parang walang katapusang gastos. We have two houses na binabayaran, car loan, insurance plans and other bank loans and expenses every month like groceries, do you believe that our grocery expense per week is Php 6,000. Yes! I don’t know kung bakit ganyan kalaki every month pero hindi naman kami maluho, I mean basic needs lang ang kinukuha namin, I guess kasi every day nagbabaon kami ng lunch ni Ian and mas marami na kami sa bahay ngayon.

But again, I believe that God has a better plan for us, we don’t think too much of our problems in life, because for us it’s just a test papers given by God to see how much we’ve learned in his subject called “LIFE”. I read a quote one time and it really sinks in my head, the quote stated like this “If your problem in life is as big as a ship, never forget that your blessings are as wide as the ocean”. Then I realized that I am blessed. I am blessed because I have a happy family that loves me so much, I have a very loving and supportive husband who never left me, I have two amazing and beautiful daughters, we have a stable jobs, a roof over my head and a warm home, a bed to sleep, a few good friends, food on our table that I don’t have to go hungry, clothes to wear, I woke up every day with more health than illness, I can hold up my head with a smile on my face and truly thankful for all the blessings we received, I am richer than I think.

It is an amazing thing that I am here now, I am alive and no matter how hard life can get, I will always go to bed grateful for everything and live my life to the fullest!