Mommy Diaries: 5 Things I Want to Do (Again)

I’m proud to say that I am a hands-on mom and wife at the same time. When I got pregnant last year, I told myself that I will breastfed my baby until 1 year old or kung pagpapalain, until 2 years old sana. Healthy na tipid pa kami lalo na sa mahal ng gatas ngayon, so when Rhian came in our life I started to breastfed her. Yes! No formula milk since day 0! Clap Clap Clap! At first it’s so difficult for me kasi super sakit to the point na nagsugat pa nipples ko, but I close my eyes and told myself na “kaya ko to, kakayanin ko para sa anak ko.” After few weeks of my so called “torture” nalagpasan ko rin sya. Yahoo!!!

When it’s time for me to go back to work last April, I started to build stash of my breast milk gusto ko kasi kahit na pumapasok na ulit ako, BF parin si baby. My very supportive husband bought me electric pump in Amazon, so aside from my shoulder bag, meron pa kong dalang 1 pang bag for my breast milk and another one for my baon.

If you decided to breastfed your baby 100%, you need to sacrifice something and I am ready for that because I am a mother. Lahat gagawin mo para sa anak mo, kahit mahirap, kahit masakit titiisin mo kasi nanay ka. But recently, I realized that I want to do something, yun bang nagagawa ko before. So here are the things that I want to do again and hopefully pag nag formula milk na si Rhian (target ko by 2 years old), magagawa ko na sya.

5. Running

If you are an avid fan of this blog, alam nyo na mahilig kaming tumakbo ni Ian. Running is one of our hobbies together, but since I breastfed my baby love, di ko na sya magawa sa ngayon because I need to go home early and think of my BM stash, bawal kasi matunaw yun eh para di mapanis plus, mahirap ng tumakbo pag kulang ka tulog and pagod ka, dapat nakapag relax ka and ready yung body mo sa pagtakbo.

4. Go out with Friends

Okay fine, nanay na ko and sabi nila hindi na dapat ako ginagabi sa labas but you know want I need to uonwind at least once a week to remove all the stress I encounter from work. Oh my! Namiss ko lumabas kasama mga friendly friends ko, although nakakalabas naman ako MINSAN, yun e hanggang 8pm lang ako. Alam nyo naman, nanay na. Hihi.

3. Coffee

Oh my! I’m not coffee drinker but I really want to drink coffee again kahit 1 cup per week lang. As much as possible ayaw ko kasi ng too much caffeine lalo na BF si baby and may nagsabi kasi sa akin na makaka affect daw kay baby pag uminom ako ng coffee, so imagine since nabuntis ako until now na mag 1 year old na si Rhian, never pa ulit ako nakainom ng coffee. So if you’re going to ask me pano ko nalalabanan antok ko during office hours (yes! Inaantok ako sa office dahil sa puyat sa pag-aalaga ng bagets) I will just stand up and maglalakad lakad ako sa hallway or makikipag chikahan ako sa officemates ko. Haha.

2. Date Night with Hubby

Before I got pregnant, Ian and I always go out after work. Either we watch movie or dinner date and endless kwentuhan, but now that we have our super maCUTElit na daughter, instead of going out for a date we opted to go home and be with our daughter. I know you will tell me na dapat may quality time kami together but whenever we try to escape just for one day, para bang nadudurog ang puso ko na hindi kasama anak ko. I remember one time, I called my mom and dad to take care of Rhian just one fine Saturday afternoon, manonoood lang kami ng sine sa century mall akalain mo ba naman na in the middle of the movie bigla akong tinawagan ng nanay ko sa cellphone at umiiyak daw ng sobra si Rhian. Waahhh.. So what we did was, we left the movie house and umuwi na kami. Another one, every 24^th of the month is our so-called “Monthsary” and my husband make lambing to me and told me na he wants to watch movie and just like mag bf/gf stage ba, and since we both agreed that every weekend is family day, we decided to file a leave from work and mag date lang  kami. Ang alam sa bahay is papasok kami pero hindi nila alam na mag date pala kami. Haha. Hayz. How I wish I can do it again, some quality time with my husband.

1. 8-Hour Straight Sleep

Last and most important thing I want to do now is to SLEEP! I know all of moms out there will agree to me na super precious na makatulog tayo ng 5-6 hours straight. I’m so happy whenever I got to sleep for 3 hours straight, susme once lang ata or twice syang nangyayari sa loob ng 1 week, since I’m a breastfeeding mom, mas in demand ang milk ng baby compare to formula milk kaya nga yung iba FM ang binibigay sa anak nila para mas matagal at mahimbing ang tulog since mas mabigat sya but like what I told you, I want to breastfed my baby as long as meron akong gatas, hopefully until 2 years old. You know what guys, sometimes I want to book cheapest hotel that can accommodate me for about 8 hours, wala akong gagawin kung hindi matulog ng matulog, but again I can’t live without my baby on my side. Di ko matiiis na hindi makita or makasama anak ko. My husband told me na makakabalik naman daw ako sa daily routine ko just like before when Rhian reach 5 years old. Oh my.

I’m not complaining, in fact I love my new role as a mom, it’s PRICELESS. Whenever I saw my daughter’s killer smile hayz. Nawawala talaga pagod ko. I just want to burst it out since I’m jealous that my husband can do all of this! Lalo na nakakainis pa gang himbing ng tulog nya with matching hilik hilik pa, samantala ako pilit na gumigising para makipaglaro or sometimes patulugin si Rhian. Waaahhh.. That’s unfair. Hehe.